Throughout my depression that I have gone through, I never really stopped to think that there might be some kind of spiritual warfare going on in my heart and mind…….that is until this week.
For the past 6 months or so, I’ve developed my personal relationship with Jesus Christ to the point of being able to ask “yes” and “no” questions. If my heart has long slow beats that symbolizes a “yes”, if there is no heartbeat response that symbolizes a “no”. It has allowed me to make some pretty difficult decisions despite when human reasoning seems more logical.
Well earlier this week I was thrown in for a loop. I don’t remember what the question was, but I believed the answer was a “yes”. Next thing I know I am hand-cuffed, sedated and back in a mental health facility. Definitely not the answer I was expecting!!
No worries, God can change any situation around.
As I laid in my bed, I began reading Matthew 17:18-21
And Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of him; and the child was cured from that very hour.
19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not cast it out?”
20 So Jesus said to them, “Because of your unbelief;[a] for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you.21 However, this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.
It’s like a felt a nudging from God that I needed to start fasting. It’s kind of ironic because I always pushed fasting aside as something that only “crazy” people do. I talked to two of the elders from my local church and they explained how I may be going through spiritual warfare from the enemy.
I always find it fascinating how God and bring you right to the correct scripture verse when facing a serious dilemma.